Hooked on you -

2010-05-23T17:34:00.005+08:00

Its been so long since i posted .
Seriously, I don't have any motivation at all .
Or maybe I do not prefer people knowing what I've been doing and thinking .
I felt like being invaded sometimes .
However , there's times that I do not wish to talk my heart out with humans .
Cause I don't need for any respond .
And now I know that I've no melatonin .
I felt as if i were meant to stay in air condition .
Here I am with Geraldine baby sit rooted in starbucks .
What a life .

Beauty , the sheer magnitude of it ,
simultaneously distanced people ,
and invited them to have fantasies .

2010-04-02T21:47:00.005+08:00

Some people like to comment on their good friends insignficanly ,
yet dare not admit .
From my stand , as i felt that theres no need to get so worked up by lil things .
And unless you're paranoid .
Which makes you an irritable person .
When you criticize people please think twice ,
you aren't perfect either .
Those whom have this habit of humilating and criticising others ,
they most probably have low self-esteem or they're simply sick in the heart .
Try thinking again , are you the irresponsible one ?
The inconsederate one ?
The egostic one ?
Or the one who fails to understand simple instructions ?
I didnt mentioned about you being lack of common sense when i hope that you aren't ,
as for you to identify who you are that I'm dedicating this post to .
Don't think that I'm not alert when i kept my mouth shut and observe your every move .
I can tell which kind of person you should be classify as .
You should know very well .

When you dislike somebody ,
have you ever wondered who dislikes you ?
So stop putting an act infront of me and think that i would be hoodwinked by you ?
Please obsolete that idea of yours .

The reason for this its because of you going overboard and thinking that I'm blind and deaf .
Vicious is to describe you but not too clever as you think you are .
I just hope you'll be a better person and posses a strong moral fibre .

2009-11-08T12:52:00.006+08:00

Can't be bothered with myself !

Don't understand why I'm so lazy .

HAHA .

Try my best to upload every events from next week on ....
I must be lying =X

Sometimes I wish I were back to the times when I fasinated with ,

toycars & barbie dolls .

Having the naive mind which plot no harm ...

2009-10-02T14:10:00.002+08:00

Wonderful .

After all these years I finally admit to the possibility of romance

& look who inspires it .

The man who broke my heart .

2009-09-22T16:46:00.003+08:00

Tooth fairy ,

i always believe in 'em .

I always thought they were real .

Until last year ,

when i was being mocked at for beliving .

If there really are ,

grant me a wish for beliving ,

i already know what i want .

2009-09-16T14:08:00.013+08:00

Beloved Haoxue's birthday !

The crazyness with my classmates !

JAPAN TRIP ;

Funny ah ?!

Crepe is yummy luhs !

This this this hair dye , freaking cheap !

These are only part of some i've bought ..

These are both mum and I contributions =)

They look real aren't they ?

Cigarettes in vending machine , cool eh ?

Lil bro is sitting on cupboard chair ..

This makes me think of Gfriend immediately !

Greentea&vanilla iceeeeeee-cream !

On the way to Disney land ..

Admission ticket to Disneyland !

Look carefully the mickey shuttle is so damn cool !

Lil bro enjoying his curry popcorn .. Special ?

Who needs a dentist ?

SNOW WHITE & 7 DWARF =DD

This ride is so fun , suddenly drop from a high level .

Dirty lil bro digging his nose ~

Poor mum is sick on bed .

This is how my bro will spend time doing in hotel .

MICKEY !

Stitch cookies .

Bought it for S240 + i think its worth ;)

SAMANTHA THAVASA ;

Hello kitty bubble gums .

Dont get the wrong idea , its actually jellly . HA .

They've got beautiful scenery in Jap !

Mum and Dad .

This is my family .
Its been so so long that we've spending time together ,
their images almost fading away .
I'm happy with this trip ,
i used to hate my father ,
hate him for giving me up when i was in pri 3 ,
i got the last position in the best class .
From then , our relationship drifted .
Blame myself for being stupid ,
but i wasn't fair that my brothers aren't as clever as i do but still get the love more than i had .
Why ?
I hated him for beating me up very badly ,
i never talk to him ,
i never like talking to him .
I stilll remember from my memory that my father never had grey hair on this scalp ,
not even one .
Now then i realised so many of them ,
he is ageing ,
i didn't know how to show that i wanted to care .
Its been so long ever since i looked at my dad closely .
There's somehow a gap .
I wanted a family close like others .
It might never happen ,
I'm such a bitch .
Spend money like they printed them .
I shouted at mum ,
she cares but i feel annoyed .
AND
My 2 adorable brothers ,
said all cutest things you can ever imagine ,
yet i shouted at them ,
vent anger at them ,
I'm guilty abt it .
I never loved them or i din't know how to .
I'm sorry .

2009-09-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

People miss me right ??
Hees .
I am currently using the Hotel's computer .
Cool eh ?
The weather here is windy ,
just like air con . Lol .
Guess how unlucky can i be ?
Got sick when i arrived here ,
and now my mum fell ill too .
So haven done much shopping .
Tmr and the day after going to Disneyland then Disneysea .
Cool eh ?

I tried to msg you people ,
but i've lack of credit .
Sian .
so i manage to blog and let you all know that I'm fine .
Hees .
I miss my 6 sisters & 1 mummy !

Sometimes it doesn't need much effort to hurt me .
Response and expression could ripe me apart .
This is how fragile I can be .
Retreat would be the best choice ,
I am afraid to love .

2009-09-02T00:57:00.005+08:00

Hey people ! Suddenly can update le !
There's still more to come =)

Tobecontinue...

2009-09-01T19:54:00.001+08:00

Eh ?
How do i upload pictures ?
WTH luhs ?!
I think i didnt use comp for way too long .
I think I'll pass my pictures to LinYong ask her help me upload .
People so so sorry !

ANDAND !!
I'm flying to Japan this Sat !
PEOPLE MUST MUST MISS ME K !?

2009-07-25T03:20:00.004+08:00

I knew it would happen .
I'm easily forgotten ,
and saying sorry to me its like throwing second insult at my face .
I hope you have some self conscious .
you never gave me any good impression all along .
You should know who you are .
You're such a let down .

2009-07-21T15:17:00.002+08:00

2othJULY'09

So it was ytd that I went alone all the way down to Toa Payoh Polyclinic for my dental appointment ,
then I wasn't 18 and needed parents presence .
Too bad both my parents were busy working their heads off ,
so I left with no choice but to ga back and can have the treatment done today .
I was given the so-called 'consent form' for either of my parents to fill in so there's no need for me to trouble them in my next visit .
My next appointment is next week 28JULY'o9 ,
Tuesday , 4 in the noon .
People who doesn't bear to see me going alone ,
please volunteer yourself to accompany me =D

When I reach the MRT station ,
this sudden desire strike me ,
shop for things ,
as it has been so long since I went shopping .
Felt this urge then without delay I thought of going AMK hub which is nearer .

Here come the cutest part ,
I took the wrong MRT which lead me to Orchard ,
I only realise when I reach .
So I change my mind,
I went Orchard instead .
I felt it so strange when people who board in the same train as I am ,
were all formally dressed .
Well , how pathetic can i be ?

Then i walked over to FarEast ,
then realised shops hadn't start their business yet ,
stupidly thinking it might be public holiday .
The securityguard stationed ouside looked at me ,
I knew something was wrong ,
that was me going too early in the moring ,
at that time it was only 1o + .
Felt ashame ,
I leaft headed to the opp side ,
where there's Mac .

Looking at women who dressed elegantly to work ,
makes me think of grilfriend immediately .
Remembering what girlfriend was impress of them ,
and i have faith that she'll soon be one of them =DD
Sat down alone after ordering a large cup of Doubble Chocolate .
To relax myself and pass time .
With a growling belly I cant go off to buy myself a breakfast ,
as i didn't to go with the drink in my hand
(which I think it seems stupid)
or to leave the drink on the table .
Feeling embarrassed ,
I gave ytd's breakfast a miss .

The silly me doesn't how to react ...
If it happen that I'll be alone for the night ,
I'd sure get myself down to some bar ,
with a fine , dry martini .
ONLY IF ...

At that point of time ,
I missed my sisters !
All the SIX !

After an hour ,
MANGO is open .
This was my first shop for the day .
Grabbed a white tunic then thinking of heading back to FarEast .

Walking in the underpass ,
I lead myself to the wrong direction ,
arrived at WeeLock .
There was this attraction that pulled me into the bookstore
and got myself 2 books [=
That cause me $48 !
Aiming for the next book ,
James Patterson's ,SwimSuit .

When I reach FarEast ,
I walked into Zimple ,
got myself a yellow tube dress .
which I planned to wear on my birthday .
Straight I went over to the shop filled with heels and chose a very very high heel for myself .
Its so irresistable .

Getting abit exhuasted ,
as I woke up early in the morning .
Then finally decided to leave Orchard .
Then back to Yishun ,
i walked pass SooKee ,
being attracted to this very lovely diamond ring ,
LOVITA .
It cost $199 after 7o%discount ,
its fairly cheap which I'd to own it .

Finally ,
I dragged my heavy and restless body back home and had a long nap .

My first experience shoppping alone ,
being independent .
It feel so unreal ,
Mummy would be so proud of me .

In the night I met Yanntorng , Sandy , Haoxue & Yanfen !
Went Pasa Malam to buy gf and my fav cheese tofu .
Then gf cheated me tgt with Hx as Hx pulled me aside .
Then my lovely GIRLFRIED did the lovliest thing i ever imagined !
She bought my fav fav fav Tutu kuay !
Hees .
So touched can ?
She knew I would want to eat .
HAHAHAS !
I didn't bear to eat can ,
then that bitchy Hx so greedy ,
I gave her only 3/4 of only one tutu =D
Cunning right ?

Then in the middle of the night I called MUMMY ,
talked for hours .
She a big gossip queen lehs , donn siao siao hor .
Still dare to blame me .
Then keep laughing at me .
So stupid .
Mummy i love you very much too la !!
Hees .
And remember I'm your promoter .
Love you bitch <3

To my SIX sisters ,
I miss all of you ,
I love the every single one of you .
YANNTORNG GET WELL SOON !

Every night when I look at your sweet and endless goodnights msg ,
I read them repeatly .
You didnt know .

2009-07-21T03:05:00.004+08:00

Hi everybody . I'm Chin Fang Ying's mother ! This stupid girl is lazy to blog so i'm helping her to type nonsense now . She's eating cup noodles now . & we're gossiping like some retarded bitches . She ah , got alot of cock to say one . Make me also become like one cockster . Nb . Lol ! We're on e' fone for 3hrs + alrdy & still gossiping . & nowwwwwwwwwww my hp is hot like a pan cake . Idk what to blog alrdy . I know i very love her can alrdy . Hahahaha ! Muacks muacks muacks <3

Oh ya & her bday coming . She ask me to tell everybody dn't forget . I think i'll be e' first one to forget . I'll purposely sleep late late on that day of her bday . & she ask me why i am laughing when i type this post . I think when she saw this she'll kpkb .

Sayo . & I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEEEE CHIN FANG YING . LOOOOOOOL

2009-07-15T18:07:00.004+08:00

Having super good appetite these days,
even girlfriend mention it .
Isn't that a good sign ?
I cant bear to see myself lossing anymore weight .
I'm aming for my desire weight which is 55kg ,
Im currently 43kg which is pathetic .

AND people ,
my BIRTHDAY is coming soon !
Don't try to pack your laguages and leave S'pore ,
[just like what girlfriend says]
I'm looking foward to it ,
just hope you people would be present .
That's all .

The upcoming BIRTHDAY would be Shan Yin's,
followed by Jack =D
I will update again after that ,
and with pictures that you people would be interested .
I'm real sorry for the past post which I've been delaying .

-
I miss the times you put me to sleep ,
it has been days .
Silly that i always thought you'll be there .

2009-07-13T23:25:00.005+08:00

I'm so damn lazy to upload so so many pictures ,
so people please wait wait =D

So sorry man .

AND GIRLFRIEND stop nagging at me .

You're such a bitch , hees .

Sometimes when i look into your eyes ,

I knew you were lying ,

but I chose to let you get over with it .

And that respond would be in some perverse sense ,

a betrayal .

I felt that everything's miscellaneous ,
I couldn't figure it out nor think properly .

Meanwhile I'm having heavy and dreamless sleep ,

its so awful .

Trying very hard enunciating word carefully ,

making sure that you hear and understand every single word .

Wanted so much to wash all the deceptions and entanglements .

If only it had been so easy .

I know i could triumph over any woman in any circumstences .

2009-07-09T13:05:00.022+08:00

There's so much to update .
I'm truly lazy man .
Let the pictures do the talking then ,
so sorry for the super late updates .
I'll be more hardworking next time =)HappyBirthday my dear girl !Fen's house after SHEBANG-SENTOSA~Girlfriend LOVES.This is my loveliest grandmother you could ever imagined !

2009-07-08T17:05:00.018+08:00

There's so so much to update .
But I'm so so lazy man !
Nevermind , lets let the pictures do the talking .

I will look handsome if I were to be man=DD

Continue again tmr ,

Sandy is coming back to yishun

and I have to rush over to torng's house!

2009-06-10T08:48:00.009+08:00

SISTERS !
Thanks for everything .
Thanks for being there .
I love all of you .
Always and for as long as i lived .

Also mummy ! I miss you much !

REMINISCE about those good days -
We'll never apart .The draft I've done before blogging .

The bleeding . been sick for the past weeek .

Started with high fever due to throat infection .

Slowly developed with MANY ulcers in down the throat .

That was such a torture .

Sometimes bleeding in the mouth occurs ,

its so awful .

Then the people who care about me thanks so much .

For the one who is closest to me don't even give a damn about me .

Sisters you all know who .

And i love you all , for being there .

I found out that i wasn't impostant afterall .

I decided .

Just another field of disappointment .

Lose so much weight , AGAIN .

So much things happened .
Lost appetie and mood .
Spending sleepless nights wondering about about things I've done .
Given so much .
Felt so tired . NVM .
I can control myself .

I'm gonna fluant about what happened ytd .
Hees .
There is this someone who notice that I've lost much weight .
NAG&NAG at me!
Then making commitment to me that the someone would bring my 3 meals daily for me .
So started from ytd , had duck porridge due to sore throat .
How sweet ..
Woke up early today ,
wondering what lunch dinner supper I would be delivered with .
I so fortunate eh ?
I'm still not contented with things i had ,
cause i wanted more .

This is what upset me .
In the middle of night ytd .
I've been summoned by Mum .
There was this arguement we had ,
then i lose control of myself .
I got so frustrated with myself .
Started slapping myself ,
blaming myself .
Then ended up with a tight slap across my face by her .
I'm not good enough .
Other woman's daughter is perfect ,
I'm not .
This is what she thinks .
She compared me .
I felt so humiliated .
Cried the whole night ,
trying hard to remember what I've done for the family .
I contribute nothing .
Waking up this morning finding myself with red and swollen eyes .
How stupid can i be ?

My loves ;

Look closely at our hair !^^Cute eh ?Yeexin , oversized toddler . Then they say i looked like sailor moon .Sampat girl .HAR is trying to act cute .
I flinched in pain when i felt reality slapped me .
I realised how unreal things have been .
I felt as though it had all just a bad nightmare .
Things I've done the past years ,
my good and bad .
I still got nothing in the end but being left hurt .
Letting everything dissolve in time .
Its my bad ,
maybe blaming myself would make you happy ,
and myself , happier , perhaps .
I know i would find myself a better man ,
I deserve more .
No love no hate ,
I had enough .
Cause i din't care anymore .
Not like i used to .

2009-06-05T02:29:00.002+08:00

DEARgirlfriend,
I'm so sorry for today .
I didn't forget you !
Please don't be angry with me .
SORRY !
Its my bad =(

2009-06-03T03:15:00.006+08:00

Everybody ! I'll try my best to keep my blog alive alrights ?

But but give me some more time lah !!
I really very lazy .. =( Tmr tmr , I'll start tmr .
PROMISE .[crossfingers]

2009-05-31T01:57:00.003+08:00

I'll try my best to bring the blog back .
So much things happen recently .
I feel so unreal .
People leaving , and they're not coming back .
I ask myself why ?
I feel so awful .
I wish there were someone ,
just someone who could understand .
Talk to me .
And myself falling ill so miserable .
I felt so useless .
I didn't have the ability to be strong .
I thought I can , I was so wrong abt it .
I choose to give up ,
how stupid can i be .
SISTERS sorry for showing you all my temper sometimes .
I didn't know what's wrong .
So much things happened , its hard for me to cope with .
I'm scared .
I spent sleepless night thinking .
Its all so wrong !
To all I have now , iloveyou all .
To those I've lost , imissyou all .

I wan hug hug -

2009-01-05T23:11:00.002+08:00

I'm simply cant be bothered ,
too lazy to upload pictures ,
too lazy to update also .
&and please be noted that i've delete my friendster alr .

2008-12-06T19:53:00.002+08:00

At M'sia now .
i'm missing my sisters !
haas .
something bad happened ,
&and something worse followed .
not feeling so well after that day i left S'pore .
maybe thats it .
i shall not elaborate .
SISTERS,TAKECARE !

2008-11-12T23:24:00.001+08:00

i donno what the fcuking wrong with my stupid comp lahs !
i cant upload all my pictures .
so i'll be delaying .
so sorry . D:

2008-10-27T22:34:00.004+08:00

i'm sorry that i haven done posting for a very long time .

happy to tell everybody that i pass EOY ,

and& got the 3rd in class .

AND& the only girl in class who got gold , 5points for every event NPFA TEST .

BUT it seems that nobody believes .

got big rewards from parents .

$300 from each of them .

M'sia trip , father is paying for all my transport plus give me Rm300.

then mom will give me another extra $300 .

I'm striking rich !

AND& for my mid year result ,

i got top 5 in class too .

alr forgotten which position .

got my reward today .

the DIGITAL CAMERA i want !

its Nikon COOLPIX S60 !

its so cool !

2008-10-09T12:24:00.004+08:00

Today its 09OCTOBER =)
My qinaide's birthday !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUWEN !
will update soon .

2008-09-24T23:28:00.003+08:00

for the past few days .
i've meeting shuwen , sheena , shermaine , yaqi &ands yanfen (;
21sept , sunday .
we went to study .
at plaza sing's BEN&JERRY ,
with yan fen , shuwen &ands sheena .
Everybody please wait ,
i'm still pending 23sept , tuesday's post .
OUT with shuwen , sheena , shermaine , yaqi &and yanfen !
celebration for yaqi's birthday !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAQI !

2008-09-24T23:12:00.019+08:00

BEN&JERRY . i wrote this .

yanfen is trying to snatch my credit !

Advertising ben&jerry ice-cream =))

Yanfen extra lahs !

Yanfen love this pic , because she love sharpsharp nipple .

My qinaide is so greedy , get those balloons from M1 ppl .

She fell down after this picture .

Guess where we get it from . Cool right ?

This is where the heart shaped sticker came from .

2008-09-08T20:41:00.001+08:00

sorry for delaying .
i'm really very lazy with blogging .
gove me somemore time uploading pictures &and all stuffs .
thanks =))

2008-08-28T20:52:00.002+08:00

i'll going to M'sia next wed , 3rd sept .
so i wont be updating till i come back =))

2008-08-28T20:07:00.006+08:00

this is about my school life . =DD

guess what this bodohs is doing .

the drawing so ugly lahs . :)

these 2 monkeys .

please don laugh at my drawing .

2008-08-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

after much persuading i still cant get baby to let me do what i want .
so i think i'll just have to wait .
vry angry luhs ,
actually told me can de .
but in the end .
forget abt it .
i hate this .
i shall get what i want no matter what ,
its the time that will make the difference .
&and things may change when time goes by .

2008-08-20T17:01:00.002+08:00

i fucking angry la !
keep quarrel .
aiyahs , then told me can pierce .
then in the end lehs ?
i donno la .
very angry la .

2008-08-19T16:20:00.002+08:00

yeah , i've handed the psp to baby on friday .
happy 2 year anniversary boy =DD
i know you'll would love to know his expression rights ?
he was so surprise that he gone bilnd .
obiously when he saw the box its psp right ?
he asked me what it that ,
then its obious that it purple colour ,
as you can see in the previous post .
then he asked me what colous is it .
cute right ?
ok , then he was happy till he kepy so quiet ,
and kept on laughing so happily .
no like he used to behave , very talkative .
im sure that his friends we green with envy .
haas .
then we went to fareast before i go to work .
then baby bought me the bag i wanted .
it about 50 bucks .
no choice baby dote on me .
hees C=

2008-08-14T18:25:00.003+08:00

I dont mind having belated birthday gifts =))
haas .
I love my friends =DD
PENDING MY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS FROM ...
Mummy , Yixian , Baby , Pravin , Pravesh , Joyce , Ivy , Jessie .
Hehes . i'm indeed a greedy person .
I'll try to get other pictures with my friends ,
then i'll post again .

2008-08-14T17:57:00.013+08:00

Birthday cake only for me . Cake with my family .
Lunch with baby .
Extra chicken baby gave . hahas .

My surprise present that i found at my door , from Eileen , my siaocharbo =))

My birthday presents ! Aren't they sweet ?

These are hellokitty key chain , from my little borthers .

Pictures with my beloved friends =DD

2008-08-12T19:41:00.004+08:00

today , after school went to eat longjohn with eunice &and shushan .
after that we proceed to my house .
i bath , get changed , then went to 900+ to buy psp for baby .
its a surprise for him .
so i didnt tell him abt it .
its for our 2 years anni de .
hees .
so sweet hor ?
=DD
im sure that he would be so happy .
haas .
this thurs day is our day !

2008-08-12T19:05:00.004+08:00

hello everybody !
im back to posting .
hees .
it will be another long post ...
lets start with my birthday eve =DD

01AUGUST'08
went buying my present with my classmates .
then had bbq after that .
my classmates &and other friends were there .
after eating we proceed to playing the water bombs we've prepared .
the esther kena till vry jia lat la .
then she hurt her toes then bleed &and cry .
then her shoes tore off so i had to be the angel .
lend her my precious slippers .
haas .
okay then my stupid yet precious mummy came vry late .
so i force her to eat alot .
haas .
&and i wanna stress on , ppl who claim to be there are not present .
it cause me to waste LOTS OF FOOD !
but i gain lots of present ! hahaha !

MY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! 02AUGUST'08 , SATURDAY .
then then in the midnight ,
abt around 2 i went out to meet my baby =))
then i went sitting in the kopi tiam with him ,
hear his friend &and him talk cock .
then next we went home .
his home , wad his was mine , so overall is our home .
haas .
then we are alr so damn tired ,
so we fell asleep after a while .
wake up early in the morning i went home .
sleep then wake up at 2 in the afternoon ,
meet baby again .
went to watch movie , THE MUMMY .
then went to cine take neoprints =DDD
hees .
so damn happy luhs .
take 2 times somemore .
i didnt realised that its alr 7 plus .
i need to rush home , cut cake with my family .
so left with no choice but to go home .
then after the cutting cake session .
i bath , went out at 1030 .
catch the MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2 .
with baby de 2nd movie of the day .
then we planned to go to sentosa make up for my birthday .
&and my stupid baby owe me birthday present &and a bag .
hees .

03AUGUST'08 SUNDAY .
went to work .
so boring ...

07AUGUST'08 THURSDAY .
my siaocharbo put the present at my door .
then when i saw it i was so surprise luhs !
haas .
it was a braclet , &and its so so pretty lahs .
i so happy &and so like it lahs .
haas .
EILEEN SIAOCHARBO , THANKS FOR THE PRESENT .
I LOVE IT , &AND I LOVE YOU TOOS .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE ! 09AUGUST'08 , SATURDAY .
i was working .
then boss drive there to specially deliver my pay !
haas .
it was my first pay lahs .
so damn happy luhs .
haas .

11AUGUST'08 , MONDAY .
went to make passport with my mum as she lost her wallet .
i saw that NGQIANYI .
then make together luhs .
haas .
after making my ic .
went to make POSB card .
its for me to save my pay &and the pocket money i saved .
haas .
cool right ?

2008-07-30T19:51:00.002+08:00

sorry ppl .
im busy lately , so i didnt update it .
i so so damn excited .
my birthday is coming la .
haas .
hmms .
not much things happen recently .
so i've also got nothing to post .
wait till after my birthday ,
i'll upload many pictures .

2008-07-23T17:30:00.005+08:00

i very lazy to post la .
aiyahs .
nothing to post also ..
currently working .
very tiring lahs !

everybody must remember my birthday ah =DD
2ND AUGUST
its next week !

2008-07-12T01:27:00.006+08:00

all my classmates phone my classmate=))

the artist drawing .

see my master piece la !

2008-07-07T08:42:00.005+08:00

im back to update for the past few days c=
5 days in one post .

THURSDAY , 3JULY'08
inter sec sch nationals .my only event , longjump .
&and then guess wad ?
MRNG claim that he'd given out all the jersey .
so i've no choice ,
i wore my PE shirt .
im the only one without jersey .
that was ok .
then when we reach the stadium .
i ask MRNG for the measuring type &and masking type .
he said ;' ohh , you didnt inform me the day before .'
HELLO ?! i was like , this is common sense la .
wah , then i got panic i called MRYEO up .
so he told me to relax &and just measure without the measuring type ,
then lend the masking type from ppl .
so i did it .
obviously i didnt qualified .
so im waiting for next year .

FRIDAY , 4JULY'08
normal morning .
until SANDYWONG called me during my lessons .
&and repeat that we're meeting at 2 for geraldine's belated birthday celeb .
then i got home took my own sweet time ,
switch the comp listen to few songs ,
then there goes my message tone ,
sandy wrote , meet at 3 .
then i slowly eat , bath , choose my clothes then make up .
then met haoxue , sandy &and geraldine at ocbc .
when we reach mrt station yanntorng was faking an angry face .
then we proceed to the mrt ,
when we were at the outram park mrt station all of us sat down
&and sandy has no place to sit she asked me &and yeexin ,
;'heai, where i sit .' nobody care .
then when we arrived at habourfront sandy went into cheers .
all of us ran away .
leaving sandy alone in the shop .
of course she chase .
then we went to watch the movie .
HANCOCK .
the movie was nice , except that i dont like the name .
after the movie , sandy , yanntorng &and me went to buy cake to surprise geraldine .
the cake its from sandy &and me =))
belated present .
then our paln moved on ,
im the one given the job to blind fold geraldine .
then her reaction was too big ,
as if her eyelashes will fall off .
she was shouting ;'my mascara ! my mascara !.'
of course i didnt care if not she wont be surprised .
after eating the cake &and dirtied everyones' face with it .
we were having so much fun .
then we proceed to eating our dinner .
yanntorng &and sandy were alr starving .
while the rest of us dont feel like eating .
after that .
we went rooftop slack &and take pictures ,
we play until it wad like our own house .
ppl around were looking at us .
then we end our day ,
while taking mrt back ,
sandy had a suggestion .
she said ;' why not you'll go my house ton la.'
then we all also ok luhs .
cause eberybody is too tired to talk .
haas .
we're having so much fun lahhs !!

SATURDAY,5JULY'08
today geraldine , yanntorng , yeexin &and me went to sandy house to ton today .
then we went to buy snacks &and ingredients for baking cookies .
then yeexin taught sandy how to make ice-cream .
then they were running out of ice .
so we've to ga &and buy ,
then sunbian ,
sandy&andi pass cookies to our boys .
but intheend i quarreled with wk .
so only sandy pass 'her' cookies to louis .
then sandy tong pang me ,
then she was not complaining ,
then when i read her blog today , she complained that im HEAVY !
to sandy ; next time you don say you wan tong pang me hor !
then we went back to sandy's house ,
they were shaking their ice cream .
sandy's action like she got stroke .
haas .
then by the time our cookies were ready for packing .
yeah !
the cookies taste so good la .
haas.
we went to bed playing , chit chatting .
so fun lahs .
yeexin is always the one doing action .
she very drama si0l .
then i noticed yeexin kept talking abt money ;
eg , i know you no money cannot afford to eat lahs .
something like that .
she vry funny lahhs (;
then when sandy climb up on the table i ask yeexin to take picture of me touching sandy's butt .
haas .
then she beat me when she got down ,
then i dont wanna delete she stuff my stitch between the cupboard &and the box .
then i have no choice , but to delete .
hahahahahas .
then everyone is in bed le .
but haven sleep yet .
then i gei kiang go off the light then i wanna play with geraldine .
i asked her to roll me to yanntorng , using her leg as i lie down .
hahas . guess wad ?
she rool me till half way then roll me back to the bed ,
i knocked on the cupboard !
so pain la .
then i asked everybody to touch .
got one big big baluku luhs .
their first reaction was ;'call wk ! call wk !'
&and yes i did . he said sayang to me .
haas .
then geraldine was like it wasnt my fault .
then i throw a set of poka cards to her . then it rebounce to her face.
there goes my revenge .
hees .
then geraldine's snoring so constant till i fell asleep .
hahas .

SUNDAY,6JULY'08
we woke up at abt 8 -10 , then i went up to see how sandy sleep .
haas .
she only woke up at 12 , wad a pig .
then we stay at sandy's house gamble till her tuitor come .
maybe she lose money they she very mang zhang .
so nobody dares to provoke her .
haas .
then we went home , thinking of going to her house that night .
she didnt wan as she think it was troublesome .

MONDAY,7JULY'08
today , met my baby at 10 .
then he accompanied me till abt 530 .
then i went to fetch my borther .
then then i went home posting all these .
im LAZY to post la !

i love the all of us ,
all of us who share secrets tgt =))
&ands sandy ,
im not angry nor i blame you .
stupid girl , i always love you (:

2008-06-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

sometimes things are hard to describe .
i don't know what i wanted .
i always thought i'm happy .
but the fact was no ,
i'm not happy at all .
i don want my life like this .
ya , i can't choose nither i can change .

baby,i'm still waiting .
you're so long .
IMY C=

2008-06-18T18:15:00.005+08:00

This blue thing is the stitch baby bought for me =)) &and the chipmunk is its partner .

This is taken from a tbowl restruant . Its okay to eat in the toilet =))

Now get wad i mean ? the seat is made of toliet bowl ..
&and table made of sink ..
Jessie's advertistment .
Im the other one . Btw the bowl is a mini bathtub .

these 2 stray dogs taken in Msia .

He thinks its funny to step on me .
Guess wad he's doing ^^
Jessie's Mr Brown .

2008-06-17T20:46:00.003+08:00

my beloved sister came to my house .
use comp for awhile .
then we proceed to curling her stupid hair .
then she got tired of it &and we went out to eat ,
as we were alr starving .

SANDYWONG was especially suay today .
- firstly the longjohn auntie clean the trays &and water fly across her eyes landed on her face .
- secondly a strange person kicked on her chair making her jurk to the front , didnt even apologise , how rude .
- thirdly she kicked on a big big stone that block her way .
my poor girl .

TO MY BABY !
baby get well soon k ?
so that i wont lock you at home .
i know you wanna play dota .
you naughty boy .
=)

2008-06-15T13:04:00.004+08:00

hello everybody .
rested for 2 days ,
&and now i continue with the posting .
i wouldn't wanna bored you all .
currently waiting for sandy's USB so i can upload all pics .
maybe few days later .

i wanna go KL &and PENANG again .
this is fun .
i bought lots of things till im broke .
so i cant get much things for you guys .

&and im so touched ,
baby bought me a cute lil stitch ,
how sweet =))

2008-06-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

this is fantastic .
im in KL now .
in my gugu house .
this is cool !
i can use e computer .
ya , but wait till monday .
i cant use anymore as there will be no computer in penang .
very lame .

i'm wondering if my baby is doing fine not .
he sounds so sad .
ya , wad i'm gonna tell you is that ;
baby i'm doing fine .
baby i wont leave you de lahs .
you bodohs .
i miss you lahs .
don think i not in Singapore you can go out till very late hor .

2008-06-06T12:26:00.003+08:00

i've been too busy lately .
busy preparing for going malaysia .
from tmr till the next sat i wont be posting .
i really too busy :))

BELOVED MUMMY ;
i'll find time in malaysia make call to you alrights ?
and& you must takecare of yourself lehs .
sorry for not contacting you this few days .
so sorry .
your heels i promise when i come bck we'll go get it immediately .
hurhurs .
MUMMY I'LL MISS YOU LOTS !

2008-06-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

abt today ,
how lame could this be ?
so damn surprise that my beloved sandy called me .
ya , then i help her to advertise her blogshop .
[i am such a good friend=X]
then tmr i'll be meeting her [shopping],
the next day im still meeting her [tracking,keepfit & practising for lngjump]
i'm a hardworking girl .
almost forgot ,
im having history remedial wed .
isn't that great ?
i forgot the time .
hope some of my girls would sms to inform me .

2008-06-02T18:37:00.003+08:00

i fell asleep ytd so didnt get to update my blog .
1st june ' SUNDAY .
waited for my lazy mummy to wake up &and prepare .
from 12 i waited to 5 nearly 6 .
see wad i mean by lazy ?
haas .

this is wad happen .
we went shop around .
bought things that we want .
&and then fly to plaza sing .
she wanted to play her 'house of the dead'
after gameover-ing time &and again .
finally she told me 'let's go'
then my feet are really exhausted .
bought slipper instead of plasters .
i am such a money spender .
mummy is eyeing for that black aldo high heels .
it cost about 80 rounded up .
she wants it , &and its my promise thats her belated birthday present .
having such a nuer isn't it fantastic ?
hurhurs .
i love self-praising .

&and in the end i read home at1020 pm .
baby was alr flaming .
i was 20mins late .
ya it was my fault .
nono , its my legs' fault .
waste my time &and money buying slippers .
how stupid .
its a lesson learnt anyway .

2008-05-30T20:12:00.012+08:00

Sorry that i took so long to post all these pictures .
Im kinda slow , at least i posted them .
=)) ILOVEMY CLASSMATES .

Both are my beloved classmates . this is the kind of carefree life .

she's an good artist , i hate her to draw so well =X

she's my water supply-er and& toilet partner

i do look as if i won a lottery afterall

in my life time , actually i do love my classmates <3

mummy taught me ; pretty in pink (:

2008-05-30T19:58:00.002+08:00

♥ im the big fan of fairy tales ,
i can even tell all those stories .
you name it i'll show you how amazing i am .

2008-05-30T19:37:00.003+08:00

feeling so bored ,
so i went daydreaming .
about all sorts of nonsense .
dont say i never care about my blog !
now i write nonsense till i run out them .
satisfied ?

to get you all inform ,
next week 7thJUNE ; saturday
i going back to malaysia .
so i wont get my blog updated .

2008-05-30T19:24:00.003+08:00

i wanna be one of those princess that live in those facinating fairy tales ,
wearing those long fine gowns in white satin fabric .
walking down those big and& long flight of stairs covered with red carpet ,
and& just before those stairs was my prince charming .
hold my hand and& dance with me right under the shining moonlight ,
and there it goes forever and& ever ,
then we'll live happily ever after .
this will come true unless because i die in my dreams ,
and& forever will be sleeping .

this is stupid , so it will never come true :))

2008-05-30T19:11:00.002+08:00

so i've a plan in mind .
half of my hols plan :)

31stMAY saturday ;
shopping with my mother ,
so that i can get wad i wan without using my own savings ,
she is sure broke after that .

1stJUNE sunday ;
shot those zombies to death ,
with my beloved mummy .

2ndJUNE monday ;
out with my beloved sandy ,
shop till we broke (:

the rest im not too sure yet =DD

2008-05-29T12:11:00.002+08:00

im meeting baby today .
=DD
so so excited ,
i haven seen him for awhile .
and the track & field training ,
is held in school ,
so how am i suppose to pratice my long jump .
guess i have to practice it by myself .
tmr i'll go to gym first ,
then to the track .
it'll be better practicing myself ,
i guess .

2008-05-27T02:12:00.002+08:00

i hate this .
its alr very late i still couldnt sleep .
this is very stupid .
guess my baby is alr fast asleep .
seriously im extremly lazy to post and& all that .
then SOMEBODY will say i abandon my blog halfway .
right sandywong ?

2008-05-25T05:00:00.002+08:00

to say the truth ,
im still lazy to post .
haas .
i just woke up after one tiring afternoon .
happy gaigai-ing with my classmates .
i bought a hellokitty headpiece and& i got really happy .
linyong said ; fangying seem like she won a lottery .
the next thing was ,
the 3 of us broke into laughters .
actually going out with them can be quite fun .
just that i never pay attention to my sch friends .

SOMEBODY make me very angry today .
MRPOH ,
you went home late ,
without informing me .
you forget the very very important good night msg ,
you went to sleep .
your excuse must be ;
oh im too tired ,
i ACCIDENTALLY fell asleep .
INTHEFIRSTPLACE WHY DID YOU WENT HOME SO LATE .
now im too furious to sleep .

2008-05-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

this is very lame .
got back my report book and guess wad ?!
i passed all subject ,
got the highest for lit ,
and 4th in class .
clever bahs .
getting reward from my parents .
&and esther lim .
hohos .

IMSOCLEVER!

2008-05-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

meeting baby today .
haas .
and going out to buy things tmr .
with my class girls .
first time in these 1yr plus .
sometimes must learn how to communicate with younger ppl .
and try to enjoy life like they do .
no worries at all .

yeahs !
today recieve mummy's msg .
so haapy .
glad that she's okay .
just a little busy .
mummy take care of yourself =)
hoping to meet you soon .
loves&misses <3

2008-05-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

MUMMY !
where are you?
i cant contact you luhs .
MISSES

2008-04-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

haas .
forece by yi xian to say i love her .

some ppl cant keep their mouths shut =)

2008-01-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

well today i did my 8oom as punishment .
and& im so excited that i going for mummy chalet on 1st , 2nd , 3rd feb !
hurhurs .
getting stressed up nowadays .
fed up about how ppl behave .
think only for themselves .
i cant blame that is human nature .
nvm .
i'll just forgive and forget .

YESyesYES !
tmr i'm having HE .
there is pratical .
so we are gonna cook again .
:)

2007-11-17T05:17:00.000+08:00

i lost him again .
think theres no more turning back le .
he says its over now .
AND EVER AFTER .
theres no use crying .
i wont torture myself .
i promie !
becaues of him i cherish myself ,
i love myself .
no more sadistic actions .
baby i hope you come back .

2007-10-27T13:36:00.000+08:00

ppl say i dont know how to cherish .

2007-09-16T00:27:00.000+08:00

open up ur throat .
i watch blood flow .
i will pull out ur breathing tube .
let euu feel the suffering ,
like im safocating without euu .
cut through ur heart .
put in inside of a bottle ,
preserve it in the refrigerator .
dig out all the other organs .
throw outside ur corridoor .
let the worms clear them .
i got into jail and i will hang myself .
RATHER THAN THE PAIN IS KILLING ME SLOWLY NOW .

2007-09-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

its the end of me ?
i wish i could hate euu !
I WISHED SO !
but i cant .
my heart is not listening to my mind .
why ?
why the hell did i met euu ?
why are euu always the one ?

my cure ;
VICEROY MENTHOL LIGHT

i promised , i gave my word .
everytime i tried to hurt myself ,
i think of euu .
i broke into tears .
i hate myself so much .
i watch love fade .
ands i know that is gone .
i kept trying .
euu wont listen .
now im done for it .

2007-09-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

i missed euu so so much .
i need euu so badly .
euu didnt care .
i love euu .
please tell miie euu would stay and wouldnt let miie shed any more tear .

our 1 year love fades so easily ?
im dreaming .
i want euu to care .
like euu used to .

i kept knocking on the wall .
it wouldnt tell miie why .
i felt like ending it all .
i wish i never came to the world .
i wish i died in a car crash .
i wish some one ran in and stab right through my heart .
i couldnt felt love anymore .
why did euu done this to miie ?

im suffering .
i puff all day .
i drunk myself to sleep .
i cry myself to sleep telling myself im already nothing .
im jealous .
jealous abt the world ,
why didnt i be the one who will be with him FOREVER ?

i dont know wad it is about .
euu left a girl wandering out of ur heart when she is so used to euu ?
she have been kept in there .
she was happy .
unfortunately he abandon her .
without any hesitation .

maybe i let tears dry .
let my blood flow .
i would be happy if anyone would wanna see me die .
in the gross way .
that even sadistic ppl will puke !

2007-09-14T18:26:00.000+08:00

so it always hurts .
tmr iish our 1 year 1 month .
euu cant even wait .
haiish .
13 september .
euu walk out of miie .
euu say euu wont be backk .

2007-09-14T17:35:00.001+08:00

his gone & its all over .
i hadnt have the chance to cherish .
baby come back .
i need euu badly .
it hurts so so much that i feel like killing myself .
so the history repeat .
it broke my heart once .
i wished euu were back .
i wish hard .

2007-07-06T17:27:00.000+08:00

so fucked up .
nvm .
its over .
im done with him .
no more love .

2007-04-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

i still feel the pain from the past .
the past that i have badd memories abt it .
the nightmares still come huanting for me .
tears still flow when it came to maii mind .
devote to me will euu ?
donchh euu noe how much i hated her ?
haiishh .
history please dont repeat .
i hate it .

2007-03-08T13:26:00.000+08:00

im sadd .
haiishh .
we are like strangers .
gurl please tell miie y ?
wadd happen tuhh our sistarship ?
really i need euu .
i donchh noe who tuhh look up fer whenn i wann talk tuhh .
haiishh .
sandy . i miss euu .
haiishh .

sistar ;
FANGYING .

2007-02-25T02:43:00.002+08:00

laogong i will biie missing euu loads & loads alrites ?
i love euu shoso much .
it really happen sho fast dat i was nortt fast enough tuhh cherish euu .
dear . im sorry .
sorry fer all da attitute i gave .
i thinkk all tish became habit .
fergive miie will euu ?
fearing fer euu leaving .
euu told miie euu wonchh leave miie .
euu lied agains .
haiishh .
hartaches ;

2007-02-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

i wonchh miiss da days we have been together .
euu made miie sho dissapointedd .
i trustedd euu sho muchh .
yet euu liedd .
i thought euu wouldnt do suchh thing tuhh hurt miie .
i never thought of dat .
donchh ever euu try looking at miie .
i wonchh turn backk .
i will biie regretless .

2007-02-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

i have grown up .
no longger da naive gurl whu believes in ur lies .
look into maii eyes whenn euu tell lies .
euu wouldnt dare .
andds euu shouldd feel guilty about it .
donchh thinkk im a stupidd .
now i noe .
i lovedd euu sho muchh .
andds tiishh iishh wadd i get ?
im dumb larhhs !

da stupidd whu believes in everythingg euu sayy no longer exist .
andds euu no longer part of maii life .
i hate euu hate euu .
da love sho deep ;
da hurt sho muchh ;
andds it turnedd tuhh biie da hate sho deep sho muchh .
dat euu never imagined before .

2007-02-07T17:37:00.001+08:00

i have seen through euu .
ur true colours are out .
he iishh da onlyy one whu cheeredd miie up whenn im sho damn sadd .
he was da onlyy one whu caredd .
wadd aboutt euu ?
euu are da one .
da one whu iishh owils hurting miie whenn im alr sho hurt .
wadd have euu done ?
euu did nothingg but kept lying .
i hadd it all enough .
put a stop larhhs .
bastard .
i hate euu sho .
the wayy euu treatedd miie .
disgustedd by euu larhhs .

2007-02-03T09:32:00.000+08:00

I HATE EUU LOADS .
see thiishh .
i hatedd wadd euu have done tuhh miie .
sorry iishh no use .
I HATE EUU TO CORE !

2007-01-27T18:19:00.000+08:00

hees .
i ok lerhhs .
i nortt sadd lerhhs .
euu believe ?
i wanna ferget .
i wonchh fergive .
i have givenn up lerhhs .
after all tiishh lies .
euu donchh belongg tuhh miie andds i donchh belongg tuhh euu .
i donchh need euu lerhhs .

2007-01-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

sorriie .
im nortt gonna inturupt da both of euu anymore.
coshh euu startedd nortt tuhh care .
i cannt help but cry .
euu are sho heartless .
im da stupid one whu listenn tuhh ur lies .
im stupid alrites ?!

2007-01-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

badd attitute .
hot temperedd .
whiie are tiishh cumming out at tiishh point of time .
go backk in narhhs .
i donchh wan tuhh biie like dat .
haiishh .
once i thinkk of her .
omg .
i was like .
haiishh .
im useless narhhs .
saddsaddsadds.

2007-01-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

cannt euu jushh biie there whenn i neededd euu most ?
euu changedd alot .
i never knew dat euu would treat miie like dat .
i love euu .
didnt euu noe ?
i miiss euu .
everytime euu broke maii heart .
i fergiven euu .
euu did dat everytime .
iishh hurtful donchh euu noe ?
dat was once .
it felt sho hurt dat maii tears jushh wonchh flow out .
sho hurt dat i cann ignore euu .
darl cum backk soon alrites ?
i need euu .
by maii side always .
euu see fer urself .
see whu iishh da one whu really need euu most .
hope euu make da right choice .
respect ur decission .
donchh let miie down .
i will biie waiting .

2007-01-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

i readd maii past smses dat euu sent .
i criedd .
i knew euu changedd .
whenn will euu biie backk .
whenn will i nortt biie upset over euu .
whenn will i nortt thinkk of our past ?
whenn will all tiishh nonsense stop ?
fine .
i wait .
coshh i love euu .
hope euu will biie backk .
back tuhh wadd euu usedd tuhh biie .
i criedd whole night miishingg euu .
now euu noe .
i lookedd strongg frm da outside .
deep in maii heart .
im sho fragile .
i need euu by maii side .
euu will protect miie wonchh euu ?
i loves euu .
now till maii last heart beat . maii last breath .
trust miie once . i can do it .
i will keep tuhh maii wordds .

2007-01-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

i still enjoy maii every single dayy in maii new schh .
havingg euu smilingg tuhh miie even i donchh have frens in class .
im sastify .
=))
haiishh .
i cannt get euu off maii mindd .
i kept thinking .
i kept miishhing da days we had .
let our memories goes on ferever .
thiishh iishh da ornie thing that will biie widd miie till maii last breath .

2007-01-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

i still tiong xim euu .
=))
haiishh .
i wiishhedd dat i cann ferget abt euu .
but sadds .
i cannt .
i still lurve euu as muchh .
i wonder if euu still lurve miie .
i wonder if euu still miishh miie .
im sadd .
didnt euu noe dat ?
wanntedd euu backk .
but iishh nortt da time .
whenn the time euu would realise .
realise the person whu neededd euu most iishh miie .
donchh upset miie agains .
hao bu hao ?

2007-01-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

now he hadd another gurl by his side .
he mention dat she was extremly gudd tuhh him .
i was wonderingg .
wadds wrongg widd miie ?
wadd couldd i have done .
haiishh .

maii dearest . euu are gone .

2007-01-01T10:07:00.000+08:00

read everythingg .
iishh all abt euu .
i miishh euu i cannt help .
if euu ever sees thiish .
tag miie pls .
read everythingg euu haven see in maii blog before .

2007-01-01T09:51:00.000+08:00

donchh sayy euu are nortt perfect anymore .
in maii heart .
in maii mind .
euu are still the perfect boyy i usedd tuhh lurve .

i lost without euu .
bring him backk tuhh miie .
iishh maii new 2007 wiishh .
bring him backk .
andds never leave miie alone .
never make miie sho upset like now .

please .
all i have written iishh wadd i have tuhh sayy .
iishh nortt fer fun .
iishh nortt a story .
tiishh iishh wadd happens tuhh miie .
i wanted him tuhh noe .
i noe he wouldnt read it all .
I KNEW IT ALL .

2007-01-01T09:30:00.000+08:00

nw that im heartless .
i gave maii whole heart tuhh euu .
andds nw euu left .
its still widd euu .
im useless .

euu askk miie nortt tuhh smoke .
nortt tuhh drinkk .
nortt tuhh cut .
even if i do .
euu will nvr noe .
if euu askk .
i wouldnt tell .
i would lie .
if euu didnt wann miie tuhh lie .
den y did euu lie tuhh miie .
making miie sho upset .
im dissapointedd .
im hurt .
BOY . I STILL LURVE EUU .

2007-01-01T09:08:00.000+08:00

he endedd it with a smile leaving her in tears .
he wasnt there to protect her like he wouldd used to .
he wouldnt care if she still lurve him .
he jushh wanna leave her .
all he could jushh sayy iishh sorry .
can it help ?
he thot dat would make her feel better .
but his wrong .
she was still deeply hurt .
she felt pain inside .

i rememberedd every moment happying widd him .
laughing together .
i rememberedd every wordd he saiid .
i even rememberedd lil things he do .
bought porrige fer miie when im hungry .
haiishh .
now he wouldnt care anymore .
i lurve him loads .
i need him by maii side .
cheeringg miie up .
askking miie nortt tuhh cry .
saying he will nortt leave miie ever .
facing all the problems together .
POHWEIKIONG ; the guy i lurve most .
ferget miie nortt will euu ?
i donchh mindd all the hurt .
but pls jushh donchh hurt miie in da heart .
now i realisedd how muchh he meant tuhh miie .
i need him .

i jushh wiishh i have a lil place in his heart .
hoping he still have a lil lurve for miie .
andds i will biie vry satisfy .

whenn we were together .
i was havingg swiitt dreams every nite .
euu toldd miie tuhh sleep tight .
i miishh euu sho muchh .
we met in dreams .
nw iishh all gone .
ishh jush only the 2nd dayy without euu .
andds i already having nightmares .

maybe we are nortt fatedd together .
ur lurve stop .
maii tears maii saddness continues .
how i wishh i could end maii life in tiishh hurtful world .
but i cannt .
i wann tuhh see euu .
i wann euu tuhh biie happiie .
i noe i would miishh loads .
i cannt leave euu .

i still rememberedd .
dat time euu made miie angry .
i said i didnt wan tuhh care euu anymore .
i remembering euu saying .
euu wann go tuhh 730 jump down .
wan let ur laopo noe how muchh she meant tuhh euu .
if euu jushh sayy it once .
i would biie willing tuhh die widd euu .
regretless .

its time .
i triedd tuhh let euu go .
but euu are still in maii heart .
i cannt ferget euu .
i will never do .
NEVER .

2006-12-31T13:23:00.000+08:00

browsingg maii past posts .
readdingg it all .
iishh all abt euu .
dont euu noe how muchh euu meant tuhh miie ?

i kept maii promishh tuhh euu .
saying i wonchh leave euu .
i wouldd lurve euu till the end .
andds i promish nth will change maii lurve fer euu .
maii feelings nvr fade .
but euu broke ur promish towards miie .
euu said euu wonchh leave miie .

the cruel fact iishh dat i will nvr have euu back .
euu left .

2006-12-31T13:12:00.000+08:00

I'm just a lil girl facing this big big cruel world
that's tearing me bit by bit

I look into your eyes
and what i got was a pair of eyes staring back at me
and when i shout for euu,
all i got was echos
i gortt scaredd
i have found maii fear

when will euu realise that
i do lurve euu all the while
but all's too late
now euu wonch turn back
euu wunt look for miie

let the sand bury those memories
let the sea wash away those tears

i'm the cause of your agony the creation of troubles
the blood that trickled down your eyes
for the hatred i've passed

you asked miie how much i lurve euu
as much as the tattoo in maii heart
your name engraved there
those masterpieces i've drawn for euu
from a colourful shade of tears
to a meaningless paper of fear

look at miie now
and tell miie right now
those three words you used to say
the opposite of i hate you#

I went back to the place we first met
they're tearing it down now
so is your lurve for me andds
i can only watch everything i watch love fade away
andd euu going away andd nvr cum backk .

2006-12-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

haiishh .
i still rememberedd .
dat time whenn i have gastric pain de time .
euu accompany miie ders .
euu make miie laugh .
i was happiie then .
but all thishh iishh gone .
i wouldd never have euu backk .
euu donchh lurve miie anylonger .
i miishh euu vry mushh .
euu didnn`t noe .
i donchh wan anything .
jushh grant miie a wish .
wishhing fer euu tuhh cum backk .
lurve miie like euu usedd tuhh do .

2006-12-31T12:41:00.000+08:00

euu are always in maii mindd .
i wouldd biie thinkkingg of our past .
whenn da dayys euu wouldd pamper miie like a princess .
da dayys whenn i sat beside euu .
talking abt rubbish .
da dayys whenn euu would cheer miie up whenn im down .
da dayys whenn euu would wipe away maii tears .
da dayys euu heldd miie in ur arms .
da dayys whenn we habb no where tuhh go andds walk aroundd .
i donchh mindd .
coshh i hab euu .
im happiie widd maii everydayy widd euu .

now iishh all gone .
all i can do iishh crying away .
hoping dat it never happenned .

waiting fer ur return .
da dayy whenn euu came backk tuhh miie .
i wouldd turn backk andds never regret .

i noe maii attitute was badd .
i wouldd change fer euu .
if euu sayy .
anything will do .
i jushh wann euu backk .
dats all .
now i realise .
i cannt do without euu .
i wann euu tuhh care .

i thot i said nortt a single tear .
wadd a stupid lie .
i said i wonchh go crying tuhh make euu stay .
but .
i do .
i jushh wann euu tuhh stay .

i miishh euu sho .
boii wo ai ni .

I WANT EUU BACK !

2006-12-10T19:38:00.000+08:00

i hadd sho muchh sho muchh tuhh sayy .
haiishh .
laogongg . tell miie euu are nortt gonna leave .
euu are nortt goingg tuhh .
i hopedd euu see tiishh .
i hopedd euu noe it .
i noe i cannt do without euu .
i needd euu .
haiishh .
wadd cann i do now ?
wadd cann i do tuhh jushh have da fadded feelinggs backk ?
haiishh .
laogongg . wo zhen de hen ai ni .
i will lurve euu now andds till ferever .
i swear .

2006-12-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

haiishh .
laogongg . i lurve euu .
wadd happenn ?
cann donchh let other ppl interfere our relationshipp hao marhhs ?
i sayy le rites . nth will change .
i wonchh leave euu .
i will nvr do dat .
haiishh .
maii feelinggs fer euu . nvr changed .
i thinkk tuhh muchh lerhhs .
haiishh .
but in da endd i thot i toldd euu nth changes .
whiie didnnt euu choose tuhh believe miie .
cann we lurve like before ?
frm thiishh moment on . fer miie .
nth will change .
i lurve euu .
i mean it .
if nortt whenn i walkk down da street .
corssing the roadd widd a car dashing towards miie .
andds blankk it went .
donchh regret . i wonchh regret .

laogong wo ai ni ;
yong yuan ,

2006-10-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

GASTRIC PAIN ! VRY VRY PAIN LARHHS !
buay tahan liao lorhhs .

morning de time gastric pain .
dens bo chap bo chap still cum out pei sistars .
den becumm more pain nurhhs .
haiishh .
todayy sian nurhhs .
ppl scoldd miie sayy i vry fan .
HAIISHH .
arh dens .
after saw TWO redd haired MONSTERS ! =XX
wahahas .
dens da gastric pain nvr stop nurhhs .
vry pain sia .
haiishh .
dens hehe luckyy gortt laogong pei wo .
make miie laughh sia .
hehes .
i rather everytime gastric pain dens laogong will cum andd entertain wo .
i donchh mind da pain nurhhs .
Laogong THANKK YOUs .
after dat laogong pei miie walkk home .
hees .
reachh home de time nortt sho pain le .
but dens vry hungry .
luckyy gortt hao xin stuppiidd .
helpp miie buy food .
lalaS .
thankk you nurhhs .
=]]
today can say quiet happiie nurhhs .
laogong suddenly sho teng wo .
hees .
shuang dao ....
=]]
next time pain more .
den laogong can entertain miie agains .

deadlyYING[x]

2006-09-15T17:23:00.000+08:00

hart pain .
after wadd euu habb say .
i cann`tt stop crying .
haiish .
maybiie im naive ?
laogong .
mushh wait fer wo ehhs .
remember we hook finger lerhhs .
cannot say fang den fang ehhs .
i noe i really donchh habb time fer euu .
laogong pls .
ren fer another few weeks .
i promishh after dat euu wan miie go pei ni i sure go der alrites ?
sorriie .
cannot take care of euu le .
mushh ownself take care .
andds donchh drink tuhh muchh cold drinks .
go safra donchh sit there tuhh long .
will get cold ders .
sorriie . i vry lo so ders .
laogong donchh bian xin .
=XX

wo hartts ni ;
yong yong yuan yuan *
believe wo hao marhhs .

2006-09-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

haiishh .
i cann`tt help .
but i miishh euu !
i juz cann`tt stand it .
wad if one day euu leave miie .
euu wonchh care anymore .
wadd am i gonna do ?
i wonder if u'd notice of the distance between us .
i wonder sumtimes if euu cared .
i wonder how many times euu think of me .
i wonder if euu will be there .
coshh of tat very secondd of u leaving .
i will biie worry if euu are fine .
i worry if there are saddened things euu are not telling me .
i dunno how tuhh show that i cared.
i dunno how tuhh tell u that i'll alwayz be there FER EUU .
sometimes i broke down .
i am thinking of wad if wad if wad if one day euu left .
andds no longer lurve miie anymore .
wad will da becum of miie .
wadd am i suppose tuhh do ?
sumtimes i wished dat euu were wid miie all da times .
when all tiish thoughts ran through maii mind .
jushh donch noe whiie but i would jushh biie crying on maii bed .
no one sees .
no one bothered .
no one noticed at all .
all i can do was jushh let maii tears flow .
i wish dat euu could see .
euu could know .
but i think euu jushh donchh understand how much i care .
nvm .
when time cums .
euu WILL UNDERSTAND .

2006-08-26T14:26:00.000+08:00

i lurve euu DAMN lotS larhhs .
haiishh .
how i wishh euu were widd miie everymoment .
sorriie .
i noe i donchh habb enough time fer euu .
haiishh .
laogong wo ai ni .
i noe sumthings i jushh donchh understand .
but euu mushh explain de rites .
donchh keep everything in ur heart .
tell miie .
haiishh donchh wanna talk abt it le larhhs .
i hate da feeling of missing maii dearest .
TERRIBLE ;

2006-07-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

i cann`tt understand whiie ppl mushh fight .
whiie ppl mushh lie .
whiie ppl mushh hurt miie .
whiie ?
did i do anything wrong ?
i noe ime nortt a gud student in sch .
i failed tuhh biie 1 .
i tried tuhh change maiiself .
i handed in all maii homework .
i revise everyday .
i go tuhh schh everyday .
i listen tuhh cher in class .
wadds wrong widd miie ?
m i dat bad ?
haiishh nvm .
no point saying all thiishh when euu think i ornie noe how tuhh say .
andd i didn`tt do anything .
THERE IISHH NOTHING I CAN DO TUHH SAVE MAIISELF .